silly little love notes

I would give it all to you,
if you were to tie your soul with mine,
it is not enough to love you through the telephone line.

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I worry about nobody else ever understanding me
the way I feel you do,
I worry that with someone else,
I could never be so consumed,
and what I worry about the most,
is if these feelings are overwhelming you.

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What have you done to me?
with your words
and your smile
and your intellectual mind.
I will be walking through a city alone,
and feel as if someone is by my side,
it seems my heart feels linked with yours,
and my soul feels it too,
but it is hard to understand,
because I am not with you.

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I wish to scream I love you's,
and to escape to distant lands,
to forget about all the people,
and simply hold your hand,
I'm picturing us in cities,
in airports and in planes,
then watching the northern lights display,
while we sleep beside mountains.
I imagine us in op shops,
picking out rings with a life of their own,
and dancing around to our playlists,
when we get bored at home.
I picture us not being understood,
and not caring what others think,
I picture us being happy,
and taking care of each other when sick,
I can picture all of our adventures,
all of your facts,
and all of your jokes,
I picture all our explorations,
around this beautiful earth.

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You are the type that makes themselves a home,
inside your heart as you roam.
Am I too far away to hold your heart?
The door to your home is always closed.

rhythm of cancer by Astarius Miraculii from his book "feast of the zodiac" wisdom of astrology

I am Cancer - of the oceans
Liquid messenger of feeling
Parent waters of a universe
Reflected skies in me revealing
That “As Above, So Below”
Through light of sun, the moon glows
Through liquid light, the fire flows

I’m different ways, for different days
A living blend, of changing trends
God harmony unfold, in the moods of my soul
That spirit fire, may take me higher

I can be a mirror
Casting anyone’s reflection
A friend and family ally
Standing up for their protection
I can be his joy,
And suddenly her sorrow
Your wants, it’s needs,  God's love, my plead
For Hope...unto tomorrow 
From peace O let me borrow

Receptive, selective, strongly protective
But cease this clinging & smothering love
Distrust & self pity, must now be corrected
Hurt feelings be drowned in a sea of love,
Intuitive, sentimental, loyal, forgiving
Visionary, historian, affectionate one
Generous, traditional, the past re-living
Lord over the moon, who’s light is the sun

Journey upward, my intention,
To get back home on lights ascension,
Home to me is everything
It is the place where I am king
Prince, Princess & royal Queen
Mother of life, indeed I am
For good of all, I am concerned.
My heart a tool, in the father's hand,
For mother’s love, the people yearn
To care and share, a Cancer heart burns
But a mother’s love, we all must learn

For we are the guardian of the birth
Of every great thing upon this earth
The fate of a planet, we hold in our hand
We are the womb, of the master plan...
I am Cancer.

the truth

I think about you all the time,

even though you're not here,

and even when we don't talk, 

I always feel you near

You manage to make me laugh a lot,

which isn't that hard to do,

but jokes always seem different,

when they're coming from you

I just want to say how I appreciate,

all of the times we have shared,

and all of the moments you have listened,

and shown me that you care

I don't think you realise,

just how much I value our friendship,

our conversations, our connection,

or whatever this all is

I have always thought you were special,

and I have no real idea why,

but since we started talking,

there has been something about you,

that I just can't deny.

And maybe I have been wrong to trust you,

and maybe I have not, 

all I know is that you will always be,

my Fantastic Mr Fox.